I guess I have to resign...

to the fact that I will have to put off my artistic urges for now. For how long? I hope not too long.

Tonight, I backed out from an audition call back. A call back!!! Tama ba naman yon? Hindi pa ako natatanggap, nag-back-out na?

I was so itching to get back to theater, to be back with my friends, to be part of a world where everyone was working to get to that perfect moment every night.The reasons were all right for me. A friend was directing. I wanted to sing and dance again. I will be playing a person who is an adult, playing for a more adult audience...Aeesssshhh.

Work gets in the way. I never thought I would be doing this. Two times. To the same friend!!! I hate it.

I remember when I used to look for work which was flexible to accommodate my love for the theater. My first week at my (official) second job, I was so happy that the performances were near our office, enabling me to excuse myself for 2-3 hours everyday for a week! This job was so theater-friendly that I was able to go to several theater tours (local and international) which ran from 2 weeks to a month. If I didnt have enough leaves, I was always quick to say, "de, don't pay me. Just let me do my play."

My next job didnt have that allowance. And although I was prepared to concentrate on that work, we all know where that led me... to Fukuoka. Thank goodness.

Now this.

After breaking the news to friends, they jokingly said, "mag-resign ka na kaya?"

Don't dare me ;-)